We lose heart before we start,
Listening to the voices in our heads.
Seeking approval from those we desire affection.
All in all we desire a deep connection.
It came from our parents, our, siblings, our friends,
It came from our culture, our race, the trends.
This feeling of inadequacy that doesn’t subside.
It causes us stress, grief, and pain inside.
We have become jealous like Cain with Able.
We chose not to believe the truth over a fable.
We compare ourselves to others only to discover our flaws.
We exaggerate our weaknesses, our value, and our cause.
We have adapted a victim mentality,
Clinching tighter to our pain.
If only our parents would have done this different,
and our teachers done that.
Our dreams would not have been crushed,
and our wallets would be fat.
Truth is… We agree with the lies we have been told;
Especially the ones we tell ourselves.
We put limits on what we view as risk.
We hesitate in fear and apprehension,
And, untrusting we recoil.
Night terrors haunt us like the unrest of weary soldiers.
Still, day after day we begrudgingly toil.
When success eventually comes on any level,
The unresolved what’s next is soon to follow.
When will our world cave in and all the naysayers win?
Such negative foreboding can prod the most optimistic people.
We affirm the discouraging words,
Giving ear to such negative things.
When we push past disappointment we struggle to hang on,
Praying our coping mechanisms will be faithful.
Our peace has been tested.
Our faith has been tried.
Our support systems stretched,
As they know us well and can judge just as harsh.
When we do walk in humility, confidence, & safety,
It feels like we have to fight to remain there.
To relinquish control and live in freedom appears irresponsible, reckless, and dangerous.
Instead of walking in faith and love,
We choose to entertain our fears and trust their ability to deliver.
Wholeness is hard,
Truth is more than perspective,
And the right thing comes from the heart,
Not because we are told we should.